I’m not one who needs attention or someone to “dote” over me. I am not a procrastinator, would consider myself more OCD and busybody. I’m not one to sit around and do nothing, not even sit and watch TV for that long. The only thing I can do for a while is sitting out by the pool or beach.🏝 That’s where I can relax enjoy the sun, peace & quiet.
Four months ago that changed for me. I have had migraines my whole adult life but have had them under control. I even went in September and had a yearly physical with blood work and all was good! The end of October I was awake all night with a migraine and sinus pressure. Migraine medicine doesn’t help, sinus medicine doesn’t help. Let’s just say that I’ve been through lots of meds that don’t seem to help. I’ve seen a neurologist, ENT, dentist (all with a different diagnosis) and my wonderful family doctor, who cares the most and trying to help. I’ve had an MRI so at least I know it’s nothing life-threatening. I function, I am not laid up in bed. Some days I feel better and some days I’m literally pushing myself to do what I need to do. If I didn’t push myself, I’m sure I would be worse. I’m not trying to play into the “self-pity” party because I have always been stronger than that, but to be honest, I have laid in bed and cried about it. I don’t like to complain, that’s just not me. I don’t do Facebook post, oh poor me I’m sick etc. In fact, only the people close to me even know about this, until now. 😳 I am a private person. I’m not writing this to get attention or pity. I’m writing to confess, that’s it’s okay to feel weakness, alone and sometimes to need other people. I’ve heard that confession is good for the soul.
I am learning to BE STILL & KNOW that God has it. To know that HIS GRACE is sufficient and HIS POWER is made perfect in my weakness.
Hopefully, this season is about to be over. I’m learning to rest and be still and not feel lazy about it. To be still in HIM. If it’s a spiritual season, I’m ready to learn what I need to learn and be over it.
This is a hard thing for me to write about because I don’t open myself up like this, maybe it’s what I needed. I didn’t plan on writing this!
I’m sure I’ve been more irritable and sensitive during these times but I’m trying not to be. I’m tired of it, four months is long enough. I pray that it ends soon. I’m believing in faith that this is the end!!
Just because I need to see a beautiful picture.💙
Enjoying the simple life,